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Friday, September 17, 2010



9:38 AM

Monday, April 19, 2010

Staring at the lappy knowing that i have a lot to say but my fingers are just not moving, until a sudden thought of you came across to my head and there, my fingers start typing gracefully as if I'm playing on the piano.

Knowing how much you have hurt me but it seems that i just couldn't forget you at all, after all, you are my first love. My heart now belong to you and wil, one who is married and in NY and one is in the heaven looking down and blessing my days with happiness.

Though i have throw all your photos away, but i just can't bare to throw the ring away. I know you called a few times without saying a thing, there is so many times i almost want to tell you "I miss you" but i told myself that i shouldn't be doing that because i made a promise, a promise to myself that i should let you go and enjoy a normal life. And another promise to Wil that i will forget about you.

AL, do you still remember the question that you asked me about our relationship? I didn't announce because i don't dare to face the world about our relationship, maybe i was too afraid. Despite the feelings for you was strong. Do you know why I rejected Wil, partial was because i just couldn't forget about you and too not ready for a relation. Not until when Wil left me then i realize that all this while i actually had fallen for him.

2 times in my life this kind of thing happen, history really repeat itself again.........................

1:19 PM

A decision was being made, no love but career for this 2 years some how my heart start to bleed when this decision was finally announce out. Maybe is just can't bare to let go of the past but i know there's no point clinging on to it as it will hurt me even further.

I asked myself "will i ever fall in love again" simple yet difficult to answer.

12:01 AM

Friday, April 09, 2010

I always know that I was born to be a very special and I should really make good use of my talent. So SUN WAKE UP! Is time to show the world your talent.....and stop thinking about the past

1:04 AM

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Luggage and Camera

While I was browsing through the net, Gmarket looking for some nice luggage and I SAW THESE beautiful vintage luggage. I just love vintage luggage but you only can get it from London/Scotland for some gorgeous one. Anyway the Following are modern vintage luggage.

My Favorite Top 3 is red white, Brown and Black

Since I'm going traveling beside luggage that i should be looking at the next should be CAMERA! This is also another gorgeous camera, although some people might feel this is ugly and not much different from other digital camera. BUT NO! Not for Leica D-Lux 4, this beauty has not just the looks and the "brain" to fit in the category of "My best digital camera". Go check it out and you will know why i say so.

11:02 AM

Monday, March 08, 2010

1 Year 4 days

Dear Wil,

is exactly 1 year 4 days after you left. How are you?

P.S. I miss you....

7:44 PM

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

1st attempt for jogging today

1h03min stop 7 times
jog for 2km i think......but i really did put in effort in it and even told myself that i can make it shouldn't give up.

9:22 PM

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Well, well the heat is getting into me now, tones of projects and endless tests. Question: why do human create so many things to torture themselves?
From the pass things like test and exam are been set from the king to the common if they want to be part of the government *i'm taking this example from the ancient china history* but look at our present life even a seven year old children got to suffer because of stress that is compiling on them.

Oh well, shall stop with the endless complains because i know my rewards will be coming to me soon.

11:43 AM

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

I was looking at the ebay website to hunt for a new wireless mouse but in the end, my itchy fingers began to type "laptop bag" and found some pretty cool bags!

if my girlfriends saw this they will start shouting at my face and say "OMG is so man!, can you choose something more lady" if my boyfriends saw this bag they will say "COOL! nice bag" which i personally think this is a cool bag too! Since i was looking for a backpack too! Well here goes the details.

still waiting to get the e-mail from the seller though, need some time to consider whether to purchase this cool bag.

Now, now ladies hold your horses! I have yet to show you the lady lappy bag so don't start scolding me

anyway they have more than just laptop bags here's the website www.thebarkingcatstore.com
the prices are all in USD have yet to confirm which design i want for this type of bag so i didn't state the price but is not expensive. The range is acceptable.

10:33 AM

Thursday, October 08, 2009

Someone asked me "So what are you good at?"

My reply was " Well, I'm good at bullshitting and being romantic"

Someone said to me " How can be this 2 at a go?"

My reply was " It's difficult for others but it's not for me since I'm already talking bullshit to you now and in the same time my charming smile smiling at you, can't you feel?"

Someone said to me "Well, i guess it has been proven......i guess"

the thing is that i was actually smiling charming to the ang mo guy infront of me.......hehehehehe, sucker!

Dr Lee Love Quote of the day : I love you not only for what you are, but for what i am when i am with you.

11:12 PM

Friday, September 18, 2009

T.T.L time to love

I tell you this video is FANTASTIC, i just can't get it out of my head. Not forgetting that i still have exam tomorrow but no mood to study la after watching this video, the feel is there man!

6:48 PM

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

grrrrr.......i think i might have done badly for my cost control, feeling super disappointed and it seems like my motivation has been drawn away from it, that bloody paper!

*geez buying "insurance" for myself again"
well, no point complaining because the WORLD is not going to stop spining just because i did badly for this bloody paper! SO i shall rule my the other 5 PAPER, if i can master FOM, FSM and Beverage then what are the 5 to me.

GO GO GO~~~~~


6:45 PM

Monday, September 14, 2009

exams AGAIN!

Once again, allow me to complain during exam.....who the HELL invented EXAM! nothing better to do is it! too free huh! then go to charity work la! So free create this kind of rubbish, killing millions of human brain cells! No wonder there's something call WHITE HAIR!

Haiz once again, exam!
writing skills - Done
Cost control - tomorrow
comprehension - wed
POA - wed
banquet - thur
POC - fri
Producity - sat

haiz i go sleep now...recharge my brain batt to work better

10:21 PM

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Just chat with Meliana and was updating about my life and seriously i really miss this best friend of mine. We have not see each other for a long time, anyway was updating her about my life and we chatted a while, suddenly i felt that we have grown so much into an adult. Imagine last time our topics were shopping, handsome guys, idol and so on. Now we are actually talking about economic!........Geez how time bring us up huh!

7:12 PM

Sunday, July 26, 2009

this is the first time i ever got a young and chio doc, well i guess she is either in her late 20's or early 30's.....come on, everytime you go see a doc is either a grandpa or grandma. Right?!

She even ask me so how many days of mc you want!.....my god! this is the best gift ever when you are sick, but sadly if it wasn't for the cost control i would had request for 1 week! T_T

Dr Lau Siew Kee, Thanks!

10:09 PM

the fever is back but body is cold, very cold... how i wish there's someone beside me right now...

7:13 PM

Saturday, July 25, 2009

I'm sick, no doubt it's gotten from the tireness that i felt right after attachment. Coughing non stop and whole body feeling cold, this is the time that i feel like having someone by my side.
Suddenly I miss Wilson, times like this he sure would be there for me. Taking care of me. This is how human being act, they start to regret when it's gone. But don't know why , this few days i missed him terribly.
Well, I guess nobody knows how I feel right now.......

7:21 PM

Sunday, July 19, 2009

I've been drinking almost everyday, well is all out of social. I think I'm falling sick soon!

7:32 PM

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Human beings are so troublesome *which including me*. Never in this world would ever satisfied their wants and needs. When they got what they wanted, they complain of the hardship they received.

Now, I'm finally back to school but I'm still tired, tired of not getting my holidays to travel out of singapore........right now the ideal of moving out of my house is getting bigger! Give me 3 more years and I believe i can own a house for myself.

8:49 AM

Sunday, June 21, 2009


*although i'm in a state of going crazy soon, but....8 more days*

8 more days to go and i can have my well deserve rest......and did i say i'm tired? BECAUSE I AM REALLY TIRED!

6:40 PM

Monday, June 15, 2009

5 Don't

Don't introduce yourself
that when all the feeling start rolling in
Don't look at me
i can't take my eyes off you
Don't smile
it cause my heart to beat unconditionally
Don't cry
it causes a hole in my heart
Don't leave
it causes a scar in my heart

6:09 PM

Tuesday, June 02, 2009


Oh my god this is the coolest phone i ever seen! The keypad is the mouse and all features! The best part of all it look so elegant! Expecting it to be release on the 1 July! Heard that London is already on the way or in fact having the phone right now! It can HOLD UP TO 32GB *memory card*

This is the advertisement

Here's how the phone look like when you are using it

7:17 PM

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Wedding invitation

A friend of mine was invited to his cousin wedding dinner on the day he receive the invitation card from his aunt but his aunt look so upset, and so he question his aunt "why do you look so sad?"
the aunt just say "when you reach home, open up the invitation card and you will know why"
Curiously about the content he hurry back home, when he open up the envelope he saw this....!

and the reason for the groom to marry the bride is......

8:50 PM

Saturday, May 23, 2009

for once i finally had the time to sit down and update my blog, it has been a tiring week for me, all my friends are asking me "oei when you want to meet?" and my answer was "not this month, i very busy" feeling guilty but no choice because I'm still a trainee and got to work like shit every single day. Everyday is doing the same thing, saying the same thing and looking at the fake expression. Working at JBR really make you see the fake people, well is not that i never see before but this time round i say this bunch of people REALLY REALLY want to give them a punch on the face.

Today is the wine tasting (every fri), greg and i were talking how fake those people are and trying to act high class when we ourselves know that it isn't. Once again looking at fake faces, well i should say not everyone because there's still some minority of people who came here and relax and don't pretend to be high class. No wonder meliana always told me that she is sick and tired of entertaining the people, because this is how sick it can be when you need to entertain all those fake people....tomorrow is my OFF DAY *FINALLY* is like taking FOREVER for the SATURDAY to come. Time passes and now we left about 6/5 weeks to go, i tell you I CAN'T WAIT TO GET OUT! Well is not that i don't like work, is just that i dislike to work for the things i dislike it....

Now all that coming into my head is sleep....sleep....sleeep...

before i end here's some interesting video i came across to while browsing the web

12:59 AM

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Exactly 1 year to go......
p.s. i'll be waiting for you for the last time before i make the final decision

2:31 AM

Sunday, April 12, 2009

The little imperfection that made them perfect....how true it is, how true.

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will.

When the road your trudging seems all up hill.

When funds are low and the debts are high

And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.

When care is pressing you down a bit

Rest, if you must......but don't you quit.

Iife is queer with its twists and turns

As every one of us sometims learns.

And many a failure turns about, when he might have won had he stuck it out.

Don't give up though the pace seems slow.

You may succeed with another blow.

Success is a failure turned inside out - The silver tint of the clouds of doubt

And you never can tell how close you are, It may be near when it seems so far;

So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit - It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

Dear Wil,

today is the day I miss you terrible dearly, don't ask me why because I have no ideal. Birthday will be this tuesday and all I wish for my birthday is to see you one last time, to say the last goodbye to you and to say I'm sorry.

Misses you with all my heart


9:50 PM

Saturday, April 11, 2009

I miss walking to Bukit Batok St 22
I miss school
I miss my classmates
I miss going to the staff room
I miss cursing and swearing at teachers, projects, tests and exams
I miss the classroom where everyone will gamble, sleep, shout and joke around
I miss the guys climbing on top of each other
I miss walking along the corridor
I miss the yellow box that in the early morning both handy and I will stand there
I miss the F*** up toilet

I miss you all!

Now I will try my best not to say SHATEC is budget when I've already found a place that is 5 TIMES worst than our school!

9:50 AM

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

It's getting on my nerves everytime I step into the restaurant. But I'm more sure right now that I am really really REALLY not suitable for F&B *although I'm very sure of this since last time*

Life is really getting meaningless as each day passes by! Very very very VERY SICK AND TIRED OF IT!

12:30 AM

Saturday, April 04, 2009

Can I ask "what is the meaning of work, when you are dragging yourself to work everyday?!" this has been coming to my head every single day when i start work. I never felt this way when i was working in conrad. Demoralize your body, mind and soul... all that came into my head was I NEED TO GET AWAY! but somehow meeting up with friends always make you feel much better, since i have meet up with jongki, GW, suzen, shine, gary, alvin, kelvin, justin and azari. Well we saw them at Marina coffee club but now haven't meet up with leroy, JJ, jaryne, mych, hunter, eugene, lisin for a while!

How's life man? This is the question that pop up

oh oh did i mention this i told greg and the rest that lewis really really really look like chow chow the purple tounge dog. I'm not trying to say he is a dog *although sometime i really do find him act like a dog* but his face REALLY REALLY look like one!.......


1:45 PM

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

1st day at julien bompard thinking that there might not be much things since IT'S THE FIRST DAY. But NO! I was wrong in the end we got a 40 pax reservation for this indonesia chinese 18 year old boy birthday party. But then again HE IS HANDSOME!!! I just simply can't take my eyes OFF HIM! wooo Charming, even his friends are good looking! Legs are aching and was bored too death since i was posted to the ala carte section due to my uniform.

2nd day at work, was morning shift 7am-3pm. The last time i attend a morning shift was during conrad days so when i woke up I told myself haiz if it is FO i don't mind but.....haiz and it's been really a while since i woke up so EARLY!!!! anyway IT was a fun morning shift working with mok and ben, of course not forgetting my bros greg and JY.....and the morning chef, chef lee was a cool and fuuny man! hehehehe alright i shall stop here my legs are killing me! so painful and i'm super TIRED!

Dear wil,

I have not been thinking of you for 2 days. Is it a good news to me? Or a bad one? But suddenly a thought of you came into my head


7:36 PM

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Woke up at 4.30am change and leave house immediately to pray to my dad. Yup correct is the time of the year of Qing Ming Jie. I was super exhausted from the lack of sleep since i only slept for 2 hours and the long journey to pray to my dad, when we reach there and my mom start to take out the things as she was preparing the stuff I was looking at my dad picture and one thing that keep coming into my head is "wow, dad it's been 4 years!" and i could never forgot that day which is 24/04 the day he passed away. By thinking of this tears almost roll out from my eyes but as usual I keep holding on to it, even now it seems that it's going to flow out anytime but I still holding on to it.


Today is the first time when both kor and i finally come together and pray to you. I'm sorry that i always make you angry, and sorry for the hurtful words and the attitude towards you. It was causes by lack of communication i say. Sorry that i didn't do my part as a daughter should do.


Once again I couldn't help but cried infront of my friends again when they asked me why am i still not quitting. As i told them the reason tears are flowing out from my eyes non stop. I still can't let it go.... I need someone, someone to pull me out of this miserable. Thinking of you everyday every min and every sec can be a torture to me, sometimes.

6:49 PM

Monday, March 23, 2009

For now I only want to concentrate on my studies especially this few days because is EXAM WEEK! This is the only semester for me to get back my 3......LEE SHAN SHAN WHAT HAPPEN TO YOU! WAKE UP WAKE UP!!!!! IS NOW OR NEVER!!!!

Come on I can do it! only need to suffer for 4 days....4 short days! Make my mom, my bro and especially myself PROUD! WORK TOWARDS YOUR GOAL, YOUR DREAM!

p.s. I can feel it! The feeling came back!!! woo hooo back to studies!

2:14 PM

Sunday, March 22, 2009

I did not interfere with your current life because I know you had suffer long enough after you came back, so is time for you have fun!

Anyway a reply back to someone,

hahahahaha I like the one on the bed! oooo YuMmY!

6:37 PM

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Guess what i had a very "fruitful" day man! went to the airport for lunch, after lunch jaryne, huimin and i decided to look for a cafe and ended up walking from T3 to T2 to T1 back to T2 and to T3 again. After walking for 1h30min we decided to land ourselves at TCC to "study" but once we sit down we start watching our movie for 2hr then jaryne and huimin start studying but huimin's lappy was too obstructive for me and in the end i ended using it for another 1hr after that i told myself that i should start studying and i did! WOW after writing 3 lines of words the staff told us that we cannot study after 7....WOW!!! so much of studying and excising for me today
*-___-".......(should have went home to sleep)

9:12 PM

Friday, March 20, 2009

I didn't change, believe me whatever i did there's always a reason for it. It wasn't did for the fun or out of frustration of it.

Remember i don't act recklessly although i might show to you all that i am.....but i'm not.

3:19 PM

Thursday, March 19, 2009

after hearing those hurtful words is still bleeding badly in my heart especially it came out from a friend....tears nearly fall but was held back because i don't want to cry in front of people... many question keep going round my head asking why did this happen? why this and why that....today will be the order taking, i shall not think about it and maybe is time to have a short break and once again i decided to use my MOST powerful quote "Ignorance is the best therapy when things is getting out of hand, so ignore!"
I'll simply don't care.....well is time to study my order taking.

7:00 AM

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

I finally played TENNIS!!!! YEAH!!!! Ever since i hurt my leg and moving around with my ba zham leg. Oh, Siang join us for tennis, i just couldn't stop thinking that he totally look like a bamboo stick when he took off his shirt and run.....evil i know but i simply can't stop thinking and laugh. HAHAHAHAHA

Anyway things got a bit run off when the security came to tell us we can't played for more than 2 hours even when we haven't exceed the time YET. Everyone was outside talking to the security guard but HE IS JUST TOO STUBBORN! and things got worst when he say something like "hokkien stick" which i serious don't know what's that until my friend told me is some gang stuff. The best part he even challenge Siang one on one....SIAO leh! When things can be settle he said this kind of things out.....totally insane

But the best is that when we are pulling Siang to the car park to cool him down the security guard took a GOLF CLUB and want to hit him! Wa seriously that time i was super worried that he might injuried anyone of us and i was so close to give him a slap on that FACE but then again lucky i didn't do that or else things will get nasty and i would have dirty my hand! Oh back to the topic, everyone was pushing both of them away.....one word to describe HILARIOUS totally man! In the end the police came and talk to Siang decide to let kimchi talk to the management about this matter.

After that everyone went to eat PRATA! YEAH! It has been a while since i had prata.....hmmmm is simply D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-S.

7:26 AM

Monday, March 09, 2009

my BIG BA ZHAM leg

Causes: playing on the table
Conclusion: NEVER EVER PLAY ON THE TABLE! *stupid me*

7:02 AM

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Dear Wilson,

It has been 1 month after you left me. On the 28 Feb I asked myself "have I forgotten about you? have I let it go?" well the answer is No......is kind of hard to let it go. Now I'm doing the things that you used to do. Going to places where used to go. Can I ever see you again?

I hate myself more and more each day passes, you know AZ ask me a question that kept me silent for a moment. She said "If time could turn back would you go with Wil?" My answer was "Yes" and I said you are the guy who met all the criteria but that the only thing that is lacking is "feeling".

I miss you


11:33 PM

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

I'm tired, very very tired. I want to have a break but yesterday was a good drinking session during Jongki's birthday! It has been a while since we had this much drink and so much fun, maybe because we just got back our transcript and majority of us did well in it. Plus It was Jongki's birthday! Well you can see how people react when they get high, super high and super duper mega extremely high. The things they said all you could do is to sit there and listen to let them pouring the things out which has been hidden deep down in their heart.

So is quite true the things they said when people get high/drunk, well then again you got to see who's the person you are talking to!

2:35 PM

Monday, February 23, 2009

Everything is coming to an end....soon!

7:50 AM

Saturday, February 21, 2009

7 more days to go before i reach my last stick
8 more days to go before i start questioning myself whether i have get over with it
12 more days to go before it reach our theme party

Dear Wil,

Just want to say "I miss you".


p.s. now you know the reason why I don't like to stay home, becuase it make me think too much!

5:33 PM

Thursday, February 19, 2009

my phone spoiled! HAR!
T_T now totally a handicap when using nokia phone.....

12:19 AM

Friday, February 13, 2009

I'm bleeding badly, I don't want to stay at home! It keeps me thinking about it and I just couldn't stop it

11:36 AM

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

This morning I saw tracy sms, in it she was asking me how am I feeling now? My reply was "I don't know.....I just keep on doing my things to avoid the thoughts of it." Maybe in the morning I was still in a very blur mood but as time passes by the feeling came back right after I finish my test, afterall I still can't let it go. I still can't let go....all I want to go is the place where Wil used to bring me which it is up on a hill in singapore.

9:47 PM

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Dear Wil,

beside saying I'm sorry I really don't know what I should say, knowing that you are gone whatever I want to say is useless. This time I really lost a precious guy. I'm an idiot, selfish & heartless person!

You know soemtime I really I deserve a slap, you're gone and yet I'm still having fun with my friends and laughing as if nothing happen. I really hate myself, really really hate it. I want to visit you but I can't because I don't even know where is it. Your parents and grandpa didn't blame me for the incident but your sister did. At least I feel a bit better at least she hate me for the cause I have done to you.

Question "Which would you prefer If a person compose a song belong to both of you or a person who try his best to play the song you love even though he don't even know how to play an instrument?"

Answer: I don't know, both are equally good in their own way.

Now i have a question for myself "Will I ever get out of this sadness? Is there anyone out there is as good as you? Will I ever forgive myself?"

5:26 PM

Thursday, February 05, 2009

Is all my fault! I shouldn't have wrote that letter to you....
I'm sorry....is all my fault

9:12 PM

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

yea yea! not everything in life that can be force or controlled, Please! Didn't we agree to it that we won't interfere with each other life? I even agree to attend one of your seminar last week, what else do you want from me?! Seriously yea yea i really had enough of all this "nonsense" so please stop.....

9:43 PM

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

I almost shed a tear today when i think about the incident, the approach and the past of responses. With all this outrageous drama suddenly i felt like a general who has lost all his warriors in the battlefield, walking through sea of dead bodies, lifelessly, where hoping to search for a new hope & a miracle to happen.

6:13 AM

Sunday, February 01, 2009

Suddenly i recall a juvenile act i did 9 years ago!!! Why am i always handling this kind of situation in this kind of method. I guess the history is repeating itself again.
I must stop this from happening, so i create a motto for myself when this kind of thing happen again

motto: don't know and don't care

sometimes in life ignorance is the best consultative
when knowing too much of the truth, it might cause a serious disease
which is call disappointment

1:29 AM

Sunday, January 25, 2009

my new year resolution - find true love

my Chinese new year resolution - find true love

one ang mo one chinese but both is new year ma~~ hehehehehe

9:32 PM

Thursday, January 22, 2009

We are friends only, right?
Should be
Must be
Confirm Plus chop

9:07 PM

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

woo hooo alright! I'm going to HK with my mom! oh yeah!!!

oh was talking to one of my good friend a few days ago and suddenly she say so next stop where to? How about NY? Then for a moment a total silent because it remind me of the past, so turn and look at her say "I'm not ready to go there yet, I make sure next time I go I want to bring someone important with me and tell AL I've start moving on"

Anyway my flight will be 8.30am on 26/01.....gosh so EARLY! I'm going to make sure i don't sleep too much so that i can save it for the flight! hehehehehe and will ask my mom to go in early since we are going to T3 for Check in, and in the same time i want to take a look inside!


7:44 PM

Saturday, January 17, 2009

I'm super duper mega extremely PISSED right now! My mom just cut off my 9 years old necklace!!! It was my FAVOURITE of all and i feel super naked right now without my necklace! ARH!!!!!

The problem is before that my mom already piss me off then i cool down a bit, with a split second a 100tons of iron just landed on my head and "fire" blow up instantly! The best part is that my mom said "ah ya is only a necklace i'll buy one and return to you la" WTH IT WAS A GIFT GODAME IT! AND IT CAN'T BE REPLACE WHEN YOU HAVE SO MUCH FEELING TOWARD IT!

8:37 PM

Thursday, January 15, 2009

I think i should REALLY REALLY start the diet programme! I wore my old uniform skirt it was TIGHT! &^#@ really must admit that i really really put on hell lot of weight!!!

ARHH!!!! me and my itchy mouth!!! SUN STOP EATING RUBBISH!

Anyway we end school pretty early though since is the 1st week of school and our lecturer normally don't start teaching since both the student and the lecturer and the student are still in HOLIDAY MOOD so after our lunch i start asking people what they want to do and everyone say they don't feel like going home, since is only 12pm+. After a several negotiation we decide to go VIVO since i say i want to go walk walk to look for my organizer *hehehehehe* i know i know is evil of me to drag everyone along BUT come on we don't feel like going home too! isn't it?

So after a long long walk we decided to watch movie and it took us 10min+ to decide what to watch since there's not much nice movie and our choice were


wasn't that bad! in fact i think it was GOOD! And i told matt that i think we are the only 2 person who were really watching this show since ah pui fall asleep right after the show start for 30min, which very normal because he always fall asleep, mych was playing with her hair and sham po wasn't really into this movie in the first place! but i insist him to come! *hehehehehehe* i know another evil side of me!

Anyway this movie is about the mother (Angelina Jolie) is searching for her lost son when she found out that he is missing, and when she report this matter to the police they only take down the information but action wasn't taken seriously. Few months pass and one day the police called to inform her that the son was found, but when she get to the train station she said it wasn't her son but the police insist her to acknowledge the "son"......the rest of it go and explore it yourself!

Conclusion: It was a good movie!

8:37 PM

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Went to have coffee with tracy before we met up with kim at the queensway shopping centre, had a little chat with her and the more i chat with her i find her more adorable! Hahhahahaha cute~~~

Anyway we went to queensway because Kim want to check out the track shoe and i want to check out for my desire jacket and i found it BUT in a dilemma whether should i get it or not....after the shopping we went to shaw tower for steamboat! Actually i love steamboat but i hardly eat it because my family doesn't really like it and allow me to eat that too, and is countable the no. of time i visit steamboat just by using my 5 fingers....after the dinner zhen called ask us where are we and i make her come down hahahaha and drink coffee since she say she can't drink anymore due to the hang over she had from the day before we met.

We went to 1 Fullerton Starbucks for coffee, i was enjoying the chat but more of the show between Tracy and zhen hahahaha for a moment can see how tracy is "afraid" of zhen because of her pervert eyes! hahahahahaha
UNTIL! the topic come to me, suddenly talk about Chinese and everyone was asking zhen how come my Chinese was so lousy and yet zhen was so good even though we came from the same school same class......and more of testing of Chinese words. Got irritated with the writing and give up on the writing of Chinese and start cursing and swearing the person who invented Chinese. Then i said "Why the word kou is square?" Then Kim suddenly say "No is not square is rectangle." Then i was like "OK whatever be it square or rectangle i still don't understand why? You see when you open your mouth the shape is circle!" Then again, Kim said "It will only be circle when you do a BJ." I stop my talk immediately with a stunt and i look at her and everyone start to laugh out loud! That's when everyone start to tease me and all i answer back is "Ah ya fuck it la!" I turn to Kim and say "Ni mei you shou hua mei ren dan ni shi yao ba" and she look at me and say "But god given you mouth is for you to talk" haiz.....long story

Even today i met up with Kim because i need to pass her the money and the topic of yesterday continue and just happen i say the same thing and then once again i was defeated BADLY. I ask her why am i always the targeted one and she say "Because you always lose!" I never lost in a argument before!!! I finally meet a challenge

Conclusion : Never Argue with Kim because is impossible to win....

5:18 PM

Monday, January 12, 2009

Who would ever know that simple test result can be such shocking and lost! I don't know whether i was tired or in total shock after knowing the truth! My mind just went blank instantly for a min, even when i was walking home i didn't even realize that i was home until a car pass by. This was my first time that my mind went blank even when we had bid each other goodbye 1 hour ago. But i do admit that we are quite cool headed when we know about it, and talk about it in a super calm manner as if nothing happen.

9:25 PM

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Sometime in life human beings know that they had an unforgettable sad memorise they had in the past, but the problem is that not all human beings is strong enough to face it or to let it go. Why is it so? Is it because they can't forgive themselves? Or a regret to life that a terrible wrong decision had been made? Well so much of human character to be explore.

Anyway today was a slacking day so most of us end up talking and i start asking everyone what is their new year resolution? Well some say take lesser cab, smoke lesser, save more money and so on. When the question comes to me i just keep quiet for a moment and say "LOVE all i want is a new love, desperate for love maybe" and i started off laughing. Then one of them said "no don't say that! Trust me don't wish for love because nowadays love are cheap! It can go to an extant that you can buy love" When i heard that i kind of feel sad and i was asking myself "don't tell me i won't be able to find a true love?" then i start saying well how i wish there's a time machine because i want to go back to the olden days where everyone treasure love, loyalty and honor! Which is hard to find all this 3 things together right now in this century.

Conclusion: no one is perfect, trust me even the so call "perfect" person will also made mistakes.

P.S. let bygone be bygone, i don't want you to suffer like me. No matter what i will find a cure to this....

8:57 AM

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Is 8.27am now and i'm feeling restless, why? Geez got to get ready for work and before that i got to enter my bathroom which totally freak me out 3 days ago!

Well i reach home around 12am/1am and when i was closing my bathroom door i happen to look up at my door and i see some thing that is stuck so was wondering what was that i open again and i saw a BLOODY BIG LIZARD to my horror i faster close the door again, well mind you the lizard was NOT DEAD! Seriously i was trap in the toilet for 20min with my hand pushing against the door and staring at the lizard. For a moment the guts fairy came upon me and suddenly i decided that this shouldn't be held any longer because i'm so tired. At first i thought of using the shower to be a baseball bat but i think again what if the lizard jump onto the and come towards me? And then i found a red container and i say ok i know the lizard CONFIRM going to JUMP judging on it stuck position and the will of getting out from the door, i was brave enough to open the door and saw the lizard jump from the door to the floor, i was screaming at the top of my voice and trust me when i say scream i really mean SCREAM. Then my mom was like what what? Then i said there's a lizard in the bathroom and i ended up scolding by her for nothing. In the end i decided to go to my bro bathroom and bath. Even it was a separated bathroom i still continue to look around to double confirm there's no lizard. Now having phobia whenever i enter that bathroom. Ok time to shower at.....my bro bathroom.


8:27 AM

Friday, January 09, 2009

Met up with nick, yenni and daniel at K box, wa it's been a while since i last join them for K. I remember back in Conrad time when we used to go K frequently after work it was so much fun as there's always so many people. Well now, even though only got 4 of us but it's still as fun as before because the mood was never away from us.

After K yenni and I went for a drink at paulaner, nick didn't join us because she want to go home for her Yu le Bai Fen Bai and Daniel was driving. Anyway back to the topic of me and yenni, she told me loads of stuff about FO and suddenly i feel that the FO i used to work is no longer the one i used to work....sad isn't it. I told her when i was celebrating on New Year Eve the first thing that came into my mind was the New Year Eve that everyone celebrate together last year 2007 going on to 2008 it was so much fun! Drinking champagne at the front desk, dancing at the FD like you are in a club, best of all taking absolute wild and funny picture at the desk. Everyone was so happy, but now after hearing the things that's going on at FO it just make me feel sad.

Why can't we eliminate the unwanted people and keep the one that is useful?

8:20 AM

Thursday, January 08, 2009

Alright is the time of the year to buy NEW CLOTHES & SHOE! Due to the recent change of my school that allow the student to wear home clothes *oh yeah* i decide to buy myself some new stuff, looking at the website i saw some beautiful babies, being me which i will definite choose my favourite color which is Red, White, Purple and the latest family member Gold. I went so crazy after seeing all this.

Purple Air force

Orange Air Force *orange use to be my favourite when i was in sec*

Flower Red which i'm so impress with myself that i actually will pick this as well!

Blue Air Force Mix

Blue Air Force *simple de virtue*

although i have been wearing Nike Shoe for almost all my life, well ever since i was pri school but i still can't help it that Agnes b gold shoe is still my No.1 favourite HOT shoe! Beauty isn't it!
Alright enough of shoe, i was looking at my schedule time table i found out that most of the time i'm in a cold cold air con room, so no doubt i need a jacket!!

so what do you think of the choices? Got a better recommendation? TELL ME! All comments are welcome!

11:21 AM

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Question and more question

Have you ever wonder whether the person beside you is the one! No matter what you does that person will do the same thing as you do, now I'm not saying that he/she is copying is just that both of you are so similar e.g eating habit, sleeping habit, drinking habit and the past.
The only differences is the character. Now would you consider that he/she is the one?

Questions, question, endless question to life! The older you get the more question you ask yourself, don't you think so too?

Anyway enough of the question I'm in dilemma right now, i only want a "pillar" to lean on, a secure "pillar" that i know no matter how bad the situation is the "pillar" is always there to support me. Would you be my "pillar"? Many things to tell you as many things has happen but somehow the chances to talk to you are very limited. I know you are busy and I too going to get busy when school start and even though before school start we are busy too....now i do agree that life is all about "hide & seek"

Would you be able to find me if i hide myself?

4:50 PM

Thursday, January 01, 2009

Happy 2009!!!

Happy 2009 people!!! Is the time of the year again to let go of the bad memories of 2008 and lets welcome 2009 with open arms!


10:41 AM

Monday, December 29, 2008

woo hoo!!
4 more days!....4 more days to bintan!!

7:31 PM

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Vague "road"

It might and might not happen since everything is unclear right now.

10:18 PM

Friday, December 26, 2008

a true story of past & present

Looking at the old pair of hands playing piano the piano it suddenly bring me back to the past

to the past where you used to use your beautiful hands to play the piano for me

so one day i decided to make a trip down to the old place where we used to go

and i saw this old broken piano

just by looking at it tears start to roll down from my eyes. Thinking of the past when we used to be so happy together and it seems like we are in our world and no one could enter. We will always play the piano together and enjoy every piece of music that we played and listened together.

and we even had a ring of promise

promises of not forgetting each other no matter what happen.

and guess what? Until now the promises is still kept even though you are gone, knowing that you are blessing me with love "up there" so i decided to keep you lock deep in my heart where no one could enter.
p.s. this story is delicated to the people out there with undying love for each other.....

8:49 AM

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

1 more day to the death anniversary
9 more days to a new year
10 years of heart pain

p.s. always in my heart

9:22 AM

Monday, December 22, 2008

I don't know why everytime i speak to them i feel that is a waste of my time and sorry to say this but i feel so stupid when i talking to them. I really don't know and don't understand! maybe i'm thinking too much or maybe i'm still not used to having people like them.......well more of human reaction and character to study.

No wonder meliana say she is sick and tired of seeing this kind of people and felt irritated with it, well don't we feel like going back to the past where life is so carefree no stress nothing to worry about.

P.S. i miss playing music

4:09 PM

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Things couldn't get any worst
  1. when Greg, Jaryne, Mychelle and Huiwen say i have eye bag!
  2. when i found 3 string of white hair from my head
  3. when i step out of the class after my FOM paper with a shaking head, cursing and swearing at the person who invented the FOM formula.

P.S. don't make me find out who you are because i'm so going to print your picture out and hang it at the dart machine and throw thousand of darts at your picture and swearing at you the same time! (>__<)*

5:54 PM

Monday, December 08, 2008

i think i should start buying these head bands one for studies and one for fencing
just happen if you guys are interested here's the link http://happymall.com/japan/head_band.htm

5:02 PM

Sunday, December 07, 2008

Tried to study yesterday but once i open the book the mood went away instantly, i'm so angry with myself why can't i do it! Is it so bloody hard to conquer the exams!

har~~!!! this is so irritating. How i wish there's a house for me to go in, where is quiet and peacful feeling.

p.s.I miss going to your house during the exam period

7:28 AM

Saturday, December 06, 2008

Low moral & no motivation.

9:06 PM

Thursday, December 04, 2008

When is my freedom coming to me T_T, i'm exhausted by the endless tests and exam. If i own this world the first thing i will do is to burn or bomb the school and banned all exam papers unless a specific instruction was given by me to have it started. 1 more week to the exam hall and i'm already having a "holiday" mood! I want the sand, sea and the sun with a coconut in my hand.

Har you see how simple things in life can make you so happy! But sadly simple things doesn't come in easy.

*knock my head* is time to get back to studies! If i can conquer this papers that means i can conquer everything! har~~~ i'm going to fight with you!

8:00 PM

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

The Top 3 "loves" of my life

Agnes b GOLD shoe *chio right!*

The 2nd love of my life iTouch....
The 3rd love of my life sony TZ lappy
i only have 1 word to say which is broke! I'm so going to announce to the world that I'm broke after i bought all this stuff.....
The 1st love cost $195
The 2nd love cost $498
The 3rd love $2000 and above
You see only 3 things and it's already digging a big hole in my wallet

9:21 PM

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Never knew that Laos guys can sing so well, so man and sexy
charming guy!

10:47 PM

Monday, November 24, 2008

Christmas Wish list

Well you all know that x'mas is coming and getting nearer everyday which means hehehehehe present!!! NAH!!!! no la is all about the joy of x'mas with your friends sitting down and chill out at one of the bar and just talk. Life is already so difficult why make it even more complicated anyway my friends and I really feel that we had enough of the fun. Come on we are not bunch of boring people is just that sometime too much of fun you get is a bit bored with it.

Anyway, beside chilling out with my friends i will still say out my x'mas present list. Well, even though we are not celebrating but i still welcome gifts coming to me! ^^ 


1. Pedro Bag

  The one that i like is somewhat similar to this BUT the design is much more simple than this and is white in color. 

 This Bag is also nice, very classy feeling

 This Too!

2. FCUK Perfume

first of all EVEN THOUGH i know it is the male perfume BUT it smell like soap and it doesn't even smell masculine at all! I just love soapy smell, especially the smell after bathing! arhhh the pong pong smell~~~

3. Pens

4. Watches

5. Kim's Cooking! *top listed*

basically if you are looking for a gift for me i will just tell you a little bit more what i likes, things like watches and pens i prefer a classy design which is really don't suit my character *i know* but guess what there's another side of human that always different from their character. Well after all i love the listen to classical music and that is already a hint that i just love classic stuff. Yup that all i think, i'm not greedy you can just buy me anything when i say anything i mean anything! Even it is a packet of tissue i still will accept it because it's the thought that counts! hehehehe 

But KIM if you are reading this i would prefer the no. 5 gift! hahahahahaha and the straight A's .....haiz i will try my very very very very very BEST *promise* 

11:05 PM