Monday, November 06, 2006
ok went for the first few session previously and yesterday i finally made my decision that is joining that company BUT the main objective is my bro! who is so call the decision maker in the HOUSE and so after telling the group about it they say when you take to your bro you must never never talk to back to him! this is a no no.....anyway in heart i was like " what the hell! this time confirm die" and so all the way home i was trying to think many different type of ways to talk to him in the end i decided to choose the HEART TO HEART talk.....and so this morning while he was eating i started to say
me: err about the bel'air thingbro: say, i'm listeningme: i talk first you just need to sit there eat and listen to me will dobro: say la! i'm listening!me: ok i want to join the bel'air(in my heart "gosh this is not the way to start! ah what the hack since i start like this then i continue like this")bro: whyme: because i believe i can make it big in that company! you see everyone work so hard is for what? MONEY! bro: ya true, but basically i don't wish to see you join! i've been to bel'air before and roughly know their system, some more mom and i got a feeling that you will become a hotel manager and yes we know that once you are interested in the things you like you will give in all the best but still i'm still not convince whether i should let you join!me:.........(feeling a bit piss off and holding myself not to talk back!)bro: ok unless you go out and work for 2 years and after 2 years we will let you join because you have stand by your own feet to earn your money! and if i ask you to quit fencing will you?me: WHAT! 2years! do you know this 2 years i can earn big bucks!!!! and right now all i have is my age! do you know that i sacrifice my hope of going to switzerland and study just to get in there! and should you know that how much i'm looking forward for studying in switzerland! and yes for the sake of this i will stop fencing.(tears start to roll down from my eyes and is non stop just like a water tap)bro: ok i tell you let say i'm a painter and you are looking for a painter to paint a picture will you believe what i say when i say i know how to paint!me:.........(gosh you are forcing me to say that word out!)bro: isn't it obvious! this is what i meanme: ok let make it a deal during my attachment from 20 nov 2006 to 18 nov 2007 you can observe whether i deserve it or not......bro: ok then it's a deal! i don't understand what you want! what is your interest!me: ok look i'm interested to become a doctor when i was young but because i am too stupid that why i gave up that dream of mine 2nd is to be a general manager in a hotel ok think hotel is a beautiful place to work BUT the salary is too low and beside my estimation time of me reaching the position is about 40+ i'm already a mother! what if that general manager don't want to go! i die right! ok so i decided to change my view to my 3rd interest which is business! business is both challanging and highly paid (if you know what to do)....why not! after seeing the bel'air thing i found out that my chances is here i don't mind taking the risk because in my heart i know it's worth for me to do it!bro: ok do you know that me and mom was like thinking for letting you to go switzerland after you graduate for diploma but under a conditition of working 2 years in singapore..... and yes we can see how much you wanted to go there from the information that you have find...this is what me and mom was thinking of.....me: ok whatever it is i just want to make use of my attachment time to let you know whether i can do it or notbro: ok and i cried for about 1 hour! man my eyes feel so tired.....and i was thinking why i ended up crying when i talk to him!
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