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Monday, June 23, 2008




i just send her off and before we bid goodbye i pass her a letter and ask her to read it when she is in the plane. This is what i wrote:

Dear Annabelle,

once again we are parted and this time i know there's no turning back. It's difficult for me to bid farewell as you are my first one and only one sorry i still don't have the courage to say this 3 words to you "I love you" in person.

after a long waiting finally i got a chance to see you, i was happier than the world could ever know. And when you give me the look in the eyes it start to bring back those old times that make me feel happy from the bottom of my heart. Right before i could say "let start again!" you took out and pass me the wedding card which make my heart shredded in to pieces where it can't be stick back.

Remember the time when you left i thought i have forgotten all about you but when i get drunk and days when i miss you so much that's when i know you still hold an important place in my heart. During this long years i had many different thoughts and regrets, nothing much important just that i miss you.

I have no doubt that when you say you really love me from the bottom of your heart because i can feel it. The hug i give you at the airport will be our last hug, the last present that i give you, please bring the feeling with you as i really don't want it anymore with me, my heart is once again close because of you i will let the beautiful times of love leave me with you.


i won't show you that i am nothing to you, i will show you how well i had.

sorry but i think I'm unable to attend the wedding
goodbye.

from,
Shan Shan

this is the last letter, at least this time i got a chance to say goodbye to her. i have no regrets since i know the truth, all i could do is to let the time to heal the deep wound in my heart. once again my heart in close, i don't wish to go back to the old self, someone please save me.


7:58 PM