Monday, April 19, 2010
Staring at the lappy knowing that i have a lot to say but my fingers are just not moving, until a sudden thought of you came across to my head and there, my fingers start typing gracefully as if I'm playing on the piano.
Knowing how much you have hurt me but it seems that i just couldn't forget you at all, after all, you are my first love. My heart now belong to you and wil, one who is married and in NY and one is in the heaven looking down and blessing my days with happiness.
Though i have throw all your photos away, but i just can't bare to throw the ring away. I know you called a few times without saying a thing, there is so many times i almost want to tell you "I miss you" but i told myself that i shouldn't be doing that because i made a promise, a promise to myself that i should let you go and enjoy a normal life. And another promise to Wil that i will forget about you.
AL, do you still remember the question that you asked me about our relationship? I didn't announce because i don't dare to face the world about our relationship, maybe i was too afraid. Despite the feelings for you was strong. Do you know why I rejected Wil, partial was because i just couldn't forget about you and too not ready for a relation. Not until when Wil left me then i realize that all this while i actually had fallen for him.
2 times in my life this kind of thing happen, history really repeat itself again.........................
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